The Eternal Part of Me

Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow

2005-10-09T06:28:00.000+05:00

I said to my friend,
"See her leaning over his arm?
Yesterday she leaned over my arm."
And he said:
"Tomorrow she will lean over mine."
And i said:
"See her sitting at his side;
And yesterday she sat at my side."
And he said:
"Tomorrow she will sit at mine."
And i said:
"Dont you see her drinking from his cup?
And yesterday she sipped from mine."
And he said:
"Tomorrow she will drink from mine."
And i said:
"Look how she glances at him with eyes full of love!
And with just such love, yesterday she glanced at me."
And he said:
"Tomorrow she will glance at me likewise."
And i said:
"Listen to her whispering songs of love in his ears.
And yesterday she whisperred the same songs in mine."
And he said:
"Tomorrow she will whisper them in mine."
And i said:
"Look at her embracing him; and yesterday she embraced me."
And he said:
"Tomorrow she will lie in my arms."
And i said,
"What a strange woman she is!"
And he said:
"She is Life."

By Khalil Jibran.

2005-04-01T00:30:00.000+05:00

Everyday, so many things remind me of you. I just wanted you to know how often i think of you and how very much i love you.
I believe in you,
I believe in our love,
I believe in our tomorrow.....
I believe in us.

Happy three year anniversary my love!

Pity the Nation

2005-02-27T09:56:00.000+05:00

My friends and road fellows,
Pity the nation that is full of beliefs
And empty of religion.
Pity the nation that wears a cloth it does not weave,
Eats bread it does not harvest,
And drinks a wine that flows
Not from its own winepress.

Pity the nation that acclaims the buly as hero,
And that deems the glittering conqueror bountiful.

Pity the nation that despises a passion in its dream,
yet submits in its awakening.

Pity the nation that raises not its voice
Save when it walks in a funeral,
Boasts not except among it ruins
And will rebel not save when its neck is laid
Between the sword and the block.

Pity the nation whose statesman is a fox,
Whose philosopher is juggler,
And whose art is the art of patching and mimicking

Pity the nation thet welcomes
Its new ruler with trumpetings
And farewells him with hooting,
Only to welcome another with trumpetings again.

Pity the nation whose sages are dumb with years
And whose strong men are yet in the cradle.

Pity the nation divided into fragments,
Each fragment deeming itself a nation.

-Khalil Jibran

totally freaked out!

2005-02-12T21:29:00.000+05:00

i got it from Shemrez's blog:D i think its fun!:p

Here's a list of things passed on from many bloggers. Copy it and put the things you've done in bold and add another thing at the end.

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink

02. Swam with dolphins

03. Climbed a mountain

04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive

05. Been inside the Great Pyramid

06. Held a tarantula

07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone

08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease

11. Bungee jumped

12. Visited Paris

13. Watched a lightning storm at sea

14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sunrise

15. Seen the Northern Lights

16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa

18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables

19. Touched an iceberg

20. Slept under the stars

21. Changed a baby's diaper

22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon

23. Watched a meteor shower

24. Gotten drunk on champagne

25. Given more than you can afford to charity

26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope

27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment

28. Had a food fight (food be much delicious and powerful commodity to waste)
29. Bet on a winning horse

30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger (ok, an acquaintance, but for all intents and purposes, a stranger)

32. Had a snowball fight

33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier

34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb

36. Enacted a favorite fantasy

37. Taken a midnight skinny dip

38. Taken an ice cold bath/shower

39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar

40. Seen a total eclipse

41. Ridden a roller coaster

42. Hit a home run

43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking

45. Adopted an accent for an entire day

46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors

47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment

48. Had two hard drives for your computer

49. Visited all 50 states

50. Loved your job for all accounts

51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced

52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied

53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country

55. Watched wild whales

56. Stolen a sign

57. Backpacked in Europe

58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing

60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice

61. Midnight walk on the beach

62. Sky diving

63. Visited Ireland

64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them

66. Visited Japan

67. Bench-pressed your own weight

68. Milked a cow

69. Alphabetized your records

70. Pretended to be a superhero

71. Sung karaoke

72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers

74. Scuba diving

75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye

76. Kissed in the rain

77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theatre
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it

81. Visited the Great Wall of China

82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to know about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better

84. Started a business

85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites

87. Taken a martial arts class

88. Sword fought for the honor of a woman.

89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight

90. Gotten married

91. Been in a movie

92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have

94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy

95. Gotten divorced

96. Had sex at the office

97 Lied97. (the real 97) Gone without food for 5 days

98. Made cookies from scratch

99. Won first prize in a costume contest

100. Ridden a gondola in Venice

101. Gotten a tattoo

102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River

104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"

105. Got flowers for no reason
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything

108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug

109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas.

111. Recorded music

112. Eaten shark

113. Had a one-night-stand

114. Gone to Thailand

115. Seen Moulin Rouge

116. Bought a house

117. Been in a combat zone

118. Buried one/both of your parents

120. Been on a cruise ship

121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone

123. Bounced a check

124. Performed in Rocky Horror

125. Read - and understood - your credit report

126. Raised children

127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy

128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour

129. Created and named your own constellation of stars

130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country

131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did

132. Called or written your Congressperson

133. Packed up and moved to another city to just start over

134. ...more than once?

135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge

136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking

137. Had an abortion, or your female partner did

138. Had plastic surgery

139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived

140. Wrote articles for a large publication

141. Lost over 100 pounds

142. Held someone while they were having a flashback

143. Piloted an airplane

144. Petted a stingray

145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth

147. Been fired or laid off from a job

148. Won money on a T.V. game show

149. Broken a bone

150. Killed a human being

151. Gone on an African photo safari

152. Ridden a motorcycle

153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of 100mph or faster?

154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced

155. Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol

156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild

157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery.

159. Had sex on a moving train

160. Had a snake as a pet

161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon

162. Slept through an entire flight: take, landing, during

163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours

164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states

165. Visited all 7 continents

166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days

167. Eaten kangaroo meat

168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground

170. Eaten sushi

171. Had your picture in the newspaper

172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime

173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for his or her actions

175. Gone back to school (ok, yeah if visiting counts...)
176. Parasailed

177. Changed your name

178. Petted a cockroach

179. Eaten fried green tomatoes

180. Read The Iliad

181. Selected one "important" author whom you missed in school, and read him/ her

182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them

183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you

184. Taught yourself an art from scratch (tried to anyway)

185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating

186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions

188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language

189. Been elected to public office

190. Written your own computer language

191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream

192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care

193. Built your own PC from parts

194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you.

195. Had a booth at a street fair

196. Dyed your hair

197: Been a DJ

198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal

199: Written your own role playing game

200: Lost your Best Friend for reasons of death

201: Fallen in love over the internet
202: Sung in a Barbers' Shop Quartet

203: Eaten a live animal

204: Been able to communicate in a language you barely learnt barely three days earlier. (twaday kinnay bacchay hain? :D :D) (ok, not been able to communicate well, but communicate nonetheless!)

205: Memorized words from all Disney movies like Aladdin, Lionking etc; furthmore, dialogues from Friends, Smallville and Star Trek (main bohat faarigh hoon)

206: Be able to relate to every song that you ever listen.

207.Thrown a surprise birthday party.

a series of unfortunate events

2004-12-27T01:37:00.000+05:00

I've been thinking about it for quite a few days that this year has been a series of unfortunate events for me.Everything i not wanted to happen has happened.From being hospitalized to getting my name in the college struck off list.I am cursed. I've also realized that i am condemned to bad luck....whereever i go its always there for me and now i've given up....im a slave to it. And am learning to get along with it by not complaining to God about it.God has chosen it for me.

I cant change things...and even if i try i know thay wont.I've tried alot to chnage things, to change people but i've ended up realizing the fact that in doing all thins im changing myself. Now i feel that it's all been like banging my head against the wall trying to break the wall but the wall is totally uneffected.

I used to cry so much and it helped in way but then i was sick of crying for things, for people, for love and i asked God not to make me cry ever again no matter wat and how i regret it now! I want to cry...once....just once....i want to cry so hard to get it all out of me...i try so hard but nothin can make me cry now....i just watch and i just bear and i just vent it all on myself but i neva cry now....its been ages since i've cried....i wish i cud cry...*sighs*

I feel totally out of control...i feel as if some unseen power is controlling me and everything is beyond my control.That power has taken over me and now i have to act according to it....i dunno wat has happened to me...i feel so frustrated that sometimes i think maybe killing myself wont hurt as much as this frustration is hurting me....I feel like that unseen power is punishing me for something and i let it punish me cuz somewhere inside i WANT to get punished...i dunno for wat....but i want to...maybe i need it....

I cant find any purpose to live.What am i here for?What is this world? What does it want from me? WHAT? WHY? WHERE? HOW?

People say that am insane.They say i need to see a shrink.They say my complains are unreasonable, They say am absurd.Why dont they understand that their words dont mean a fuckin thing to me!.....or....maybe somewhere deep inside me it does really mean something to me.....*exasperated* Why dont they understand that all i need is love....its the only thing to break that curse spell that has been cast on me for ages....just love....love...pure love....thats the only hope am living for...
Maybe ur just another addition to my haterz list...but these words mean ALOT to me....or maybe they will....sometime....for someone somwehere....

:/

2004-12-19T13:34:00.000+05:00

i feel hadicapped when i dont have any credit in my cell:/

hurt

2004-12-12T02:46:00.000+05:00

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feeling disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end

you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

listening to:harder to breath by Maroon 5

2004-11-17T01:57:00.000+05:00

u know therez just one thing in this whole damned world am "perfect" at,.....and that is "WASTING TIME"! i dunno sometimes i totally slack off! i literally drag myself around all day....i hate to get out of bed....i hate it when someone calls me.....i even hate to get out of bed to eat.....i hate when my frend tell me abt the upcoming tests at college.....i even hate going for shopping! i dunno wat the fuck has happened to me and no doc can figure it out! shrinks are out of question.....lol.....neva mind. These days all i feel like doing is taking a sleeping pill (which i bet are not gonna effect anymore) and sleep in my bed like a baby for daysssssss with no one to banging my door and no fone calls to disturb me.......
"help me God."

so much for my happy ending!

2004-11-01T14:38:00.000+05:00

Saw this big poster in college about a book, then one of my frends bought it.i read one page and i ran to the photocopy shop to buy it.Its written by some very young banda doing medical i guess and i loved this piece of writting from his book:

"It's not necessary that your smiles represent your happiness all the time, its not necessary that your tears represent your dejection all the time but much precious are the tears that can stand for your happiness and priceless are the smiles that can hide your tears."

Oh...btw i forgot to mention the name of the book...its "Shouting Whispers".

:(

2004-10-21T17:10:00.000+05:00

"As children bring their broken toys with tears for us to mend, I took my broken
dreams to God because he was my friend.
But instead of leaving him in peace to work alone, I hung around and tried to
help in ways that were my own.
At last I snatched them back and cried, “How can you be so slow?”"

I came across this on a site and i liked it very much.

life...

2004-08-29T13:04:00.000+05:00

"Life is a woman bathing in the tears of her lover and anointing herself with the blood of her victims.Her rainments are white days,lined with darkness of night.She takes the human heart to lover,but denies herself in marriage......Life is an enchantress who seduces ud with her beauty-But he who knows her wiles will flee her enchantments."
Khalil Jibran